TaHO(e)ME

I have been in Tahoe for a few days now, the journey was a long one; I went to the 9:30 Art of Flight Premiere in Boulder, CO on Wednesday night. That movie is the most amazing thing I have seen in a while... blew my mind. After the premiere let out I went to the party at the bar across the street, it was trivia night there but I didn't have the mindset to start drinking and sit still to answer somebody else's questions, I wanted to DO SOMETHING! So, after one beer I hopped in my car and drove north to Cheyenne Wyoming, (its actually the quicker way to head west from boulder) where I decided it was time to take a nap around 2 a.m.at the truck stop where 25N meets 80W.

BBBRBRHRBHRBRHBRHRBHBRBR!!!!!! the sound of a semi engine braking wakes me up at 4 a.m. I get back to the drivers side of my car, start her up and away I go down 80W. When you drive alone in a car for that long your mind begins to wander.... "This is an ambitious effort to get to Tahoe as soon as possible! makes me feel a little crazy", "I miss my friends and I am sick of being alone on the open road", "how do those trucker dudes do this for a living? I would just quit after a week". Thoughts like these raced in and out of my head vanishing into oblivion as quickly as they had appeared.

My mind was constantly onto the next thing, it seemed that time passed faster for me that way which was good to me at the moment because I just wanted to get there. For a moment I thought it would have been impossible to enjoy this drive. Then I allowed myself to envision the drive as being a part of my life, an experience worth having, "what could I gain from this?" I asked myself. Encouraged by the lack of interesting conversations I had had alone in the car in the previous 48 hrs, I began to see the positive side of my time spent alone. I had plenty of time to reflect on myself and understand where I was at in my life. It was all very heart warming and epiphanous. Then I looked at the clock and only 10 minutes had passed when it had seemed like an hour. "I dont want to be in this car anymore!"

I took in the value of my thought experiment; if you want to slow time down, then you can. Being that time is perceived and never moves at a constant pace, we can all eventually see the correlation between rushing through something and how little we remember about it. I think this sense is strongly tied to how our memory absorbs the information we give it. If you're speeding by the roses doing 85 in your subaru, then you wont remember what they smelled like. So I guess the moral is stop for a minute or two everyday, and you will be able to see a part of life that you never did before. It will be beautiful and one can get a great deal more out of those two minutes than they ever did chugging coffee and driving an hour to work screaming at the other people in traffic to go faster.

Anyway, after that though had passed I had hundreds of miles to get through, but I made it. pulled into a car wash in Reno, NV around 3:45 p.m. Had them scrape all the bugs off my car, I felt so murderous when I saw them all plastered on my bumper, their final wish in life was most likely to find food, only to be answered with a SPLAT! at 85mph...OH WOW! I felt that feeling again, like I had been wasting time until this moment where I took a second to admire the little things. I found the balance I was looking for. Life is no race, however, if you want to spend the entire time just admiring the splattered bugs on your bumper and feeling bad for them, then you wont ever get anything done in life. So I like to just take those few minutes everyday and try to live in infinity for whatever its worth, good or bad.

4:30 p.m. Thursday afternoon. Made it to my close friend Cheyanne's house in Incline Village, NV, where I am living for the next month. I looked back at my drive and felt accomplishment, disgust, joy, sadness, and all those things that you might feel when u reflect on a good chuck of intense time. But I didn't feel any regret so I knew that I was doing the right thing.

Welcomed myself to Tahoe with some partying and a fun weekend. now I'm sitting here hoping for snow to fall soon so I can post videos to this blog instead of sappy, meaningful life lessons that I will never forget.